‘I felt trapped in my body and thought no one would ever love me,’: Mum with 34G cup size gets ‘life-changing’ reduction

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A woman has shared how a surgeon removed 850g of excess weight from her breasts after undergoing a reduction – where she once felt “trapped” in her own body.

Boudicca before her reduction

Boudicca Langer-Hann, 40, an events manager from Dorset, England, started noticing that her breasts were larger than her friends as a teenager and felt that they never suited her.

As she believes that large breasts are deemed to look “sexy” she was worried about how others may perceive her.

She recalls having dreams of being a dancer or model growing up, where she loved being active.

Over the years, she became “disappointed” in herself for never feeling confident and soon, she started receiving unwanted comments, as well as feeling “trapped” in her own body.

“I felt trapped in my own body, as I never thought they suited me,” Boudicca told NeedToKnow.online.

“I was casually called ‘boobs’ quite a lot, even by close friends and that always made me feel hurt.

Boudicca dressed in gym wear, before her reduction

“I received a lot of sexual attention as if I wanted it and it seemed like people assumed I’d be ‘up for it’ being so ‘sexy’ [due to my boobs].

“I still find it astounding how anyone thinks there is any place to comment on someone’s body.

“I developed late and was happy being a ‘little pixie girl’ – and I wanted to be a gymnast, but my body didn’t want that for me.

“My mental health was terrible and I was convinced I was really fat.

“I got bigger and bigger in clothes size especially after having children – I was a mess, depressed and felt like I couldn’t do anything about it.

“I felt that no one should love me, I could not love myself.”

At 33-years-old, she booked in for a consultation to have a breast reduction and was told to wait in case she wanted any more children.

The mother-of-one recalls reluctantly agreeing, as she believes there’s benefits of having “natural” breasts while breastfeeding.

Boudicca and her husband

After having her second child, the first thing on her mind was having a breast reduction – which she booked in for August 2021, costing £6,849.

Boudicca with her husband and family

She said: “I decided this was a one-in-a-lifetime opportunity and I should go for it.

“Although I was a little afraid, I wanted to be who I wanted to be.

“Mr Sawyer, my surgeon, let me decide if I wanted to go for a D or C [cup size] and on the day of my operation, I opted for a C.”

Before and after her reduction

From her 34G cup size, she now has 30C breasts and claims that 450g of weight was removed from one breast alone.

However, the recovery process didn’t go as thought and soon, she started experiencing issues.

Boudicca added: “I was spaced out and not with it for a while.

“I felt mashed as I didn’t react well to the morphine.

“When you’re all cut up and it’s right in front of you, it’s very difficult to imagine that you will heal.

“There were a couple of days right after, where I got a bit upset and anxious over feeling [this way].”

Boudicca’s breasts before and after

After a lengthy healing process, she’s now taken up running four times a week and says she’s able to do more now than ever before.

She said: “I am more active with my children, I have more confidence and I even jump up in the mornings.

Boudicca after her surgery

“I love being active as it really suits me and makes me happy – I smile so much more and I’m never going to get over it.

“I know it’s commonly said by women who have had this procedure but, I wish I had done it sooner.”

Sharing her journey on her Instagram, she hopes to provide an insight for her followers.

Boudicca after her reduction

Boudicca added: “I was looking for answers on the internet and found a lot of comfort in the posts on Instagram from other women.

I felt I should account [my journey] too and I’m so pleased that I did.

“I’ve answered many questions from women who have been considering it or have surgeries coming up.

“It’s normal to be afraid, as it is such a big deal and a really emotional one too.

Before and after of Boudicca’s breast reduction

“But ultimately it is so worth it – so please push through the fear and shortly after, you will be living your new and improved life.

“Go on websites and research different surgeons – if you come across a surgeon without a review online, probably best to stay away.

“Go to several consultations as you are spending a heap of money and you absolutely should shop around to see what’s best for you.

Boudicca and her mother, after her reduction

“One of my best moments post op, was buttoning up a jacket all the way to the top – sensational.”